BIG project today! My goal is to clean up the mess in the LR that happened when I didn't get bookcases when I thought I would and stuff sat for a few weeks. Then, it was hard for me to clean it up once I got the bookcases. So, it's been sitting there for probably almost two months now. I also wanted to do the dishes and empty the garbage, plus do laundry. At this moment I'm totally feeling that I can do it!
As I got some more laundry ready to clean, I took another load to the basement, but, the washer and dryer weren't ready yet. I came back up and I was out of breath and started to feel like I needed to stop...I need to stop and rest. Then, I got stressed thinking about how the internet is down right now and I need to call the water company. My head hurts and I'm feeling a little overwhelmed about all the stuff I wanted to do today. I'm starting to get worried that I won't do it and be a total failure.
Ok, well, I did get one of the declutter projects done today. I had an unexpected headache, it was so bad I felt nauseous and I actually started to cry while I was trying to do dishes. I completely stressed out that I couldn't get stuff done, I was very hard on myself and couldn't find a way to stop. Eventually, my headache lightened a bit and I was able to get the dishes done. TBH, anger spurred me on a bit. Someone made me angry about something that has nothing to do with clutter and that, coupled with my headache feeling a little better, made me go and do the dishes. You will see by the pictures why this is a big deal. It's completely embarrassing to post this and I had second thoughts thinking of everyone judging me. However, if I'm going to do this, I'm going to be completely honest about it and not hide anything. I want others to know that they are not alone and when I say "clutter" I mean real clutter, not occasional mess that gets cleaned up fairly often!
Here is before:
Here is after:
AND I actually DID the dishes, I didn't put them in a box and clean the sink out! lol
I'm feeling proud of myself for doing them. I just couldn't get to the other clutter yet. I think I need to make my lists smaller. Like a portion of the clutter, not the entire pile.
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