Ottoman

Today I decided to declutter the ottoman. It was a quick "I'll do that NOW" decision and I jumped up and started. I was excited to get this blog started, so, that could have been part of my motivation. It was slow going today on the clutter front until that moment. I woke at 5:30am because the hamster wheel was squeaking. So, I got up and oiled it. Then, I noticed that the TV in the bedroom was flashing a comcast signal, which was odd. I started to worry that our cable got shut off, which got me worrying about the bills and wondering how we were going to pay them. Hence me waking for good at 5:30. Then, around 8a, one of our cats had some sort of spell where she meowed loudly and lost control of her limbs and fell. Freaked us right out! She got better, but, then it happened again around 11a. So, I called the vet and we have a 4pm appointment. Which also made us cancel everything we had on the schedule for the day. No, hanging with friends, no karate class and no grappling class. All of this stuff had me completely stressed out this morning and not in the mood to think about clutter. Though, I really felt strongly that I wanted to do SOMEthing today, even if it was a corner of a table, I wanted to do it!








So, I tackled the large ottoman that we use as a seat when it's not full of clutter. You can see the before and after photoes. A lot of it was laundry. I put the laundry away, there were some magazines, books and games underneath the clothes. Not to mention some old tissues and mail that belonged in the garbage. I put everything where it goes and I feel better that I accomplished something today.




As I was cleaning off the ottoman, I felt rushed, I felt like I was in a race and needed to get it done as quickly as possible. I started to feel sick to my stomach, my abdomen tightened up and I became really tense. I got heartburn and felt relief when it was over and I was done. What I really wanted to do was to stop and really feel these feelings as they were happening, to kind of try and get to the root of them, at least figure out more clearly *what* I'm feeling. Unfortunately, I just pushed through them like I usually do and so I have no further insights. I still feel queasy as I sit here and write this and my throat tightens up and my head starts to feel like it's being squeezed. Obviously I have a lot of work to do, but, the end result is..Day 1...success! I cleared off one thing! :-)